The Gardener
Servant：Have mercy upon your servant,my queen!
Queen：The assembly is over and my servants are all gone.Why do you come at this late hour?
Servant：When you have finished with others,that is my time.I come to ask what remains for your last servant to do.
Queen ：What can you expect when it is too late?
Servant ：Make me the gardener of your flower garden.
Queen：What folly is this?
Servant ：I will give up my other work.
I throw my swords and lances down in the dust.Do not send me to distant courts; do not bid me undertake new conquests.But make me the gardener of your flower garden.
Queen ：What will your duties be?
Servant ：The service of your idle days.I will keep fresh the grassy path where you walk in the morning,where your feet will be greeted with praise at every step by the flowers eager for death.I will swing you in a swing among the branches of the saptaparna,where the early evening moon will struggle to kiss your skirt through the leaves.
I will replenish with scented oil the lamp that burns by your bedside,and decorate your footstool with sandal and saffron paste in wondrous designs.
Queen ：What will you have for your reward?
Servant ：To be allowed to hold your little fists like tender lotus-buds and slip flower chains over your wrists; to tinge the soles of your feet with the red juice of askoka petals and kiss away the speck of dust that may chance to linger there.
Queen：Your prayers are granted,my servant,your will be the gardener of my flower garden.
“AH,poet,the evening draws near; your hair is turning grey.”
“Do you in your lonely musing hear the message of the hereafter?”
“It is evening,”the poet said,“ and I am listening because someone may call from the village,late though it be.”
“I watch if young straying hearts meet together,and two pairs of eager eyes beg for music to break their silence and speak for them.”
“Who is there to weave their passionate songs,if I sit on the shore of life and contemplate death and the beyond?”
“The early evening star disappears.”
“The glow of a funeral pyre slowly dies by the silent river.”
“Jackals cry in chorus from the courtyard of the deserted house in the light of the worn-out moon.”
“If some wanderer,leaving home,come here to watch the night and with bowed head listen to the murmur of the darkness,who is there to whisper the secrets of life into his ears if I shutting my doors,should try to free myself from mortal bonds?”
“It is a trifle that my hair is turning grey.”
“I am ever as young or as old as the youngest and the oldest of this village.”
“Some have smiles,sweet and simple and some a sly twinkle in their eyes.”
“Some have tears that well up in the daylight,and others tears that are hidden in the gloom.”
“They all have need for me,and I have no time to brood over the afterlife.”
“I am of an age with each,what matter if my hair turns grey?”
In the morning I cast my net into the sea.
I dragged up from the dark abyss things of strange aspect and strange beauty—some shone like a smile,some glistened like tears,and some were flushed like the cheeks of a bride.
When with the day’s burden I went home,my love was sitting in the garden idly tearing the leaves of a flower.
I hesitated for a moment,and then placed at her feet all that I had dragged up,and stood silent.
She glanced at them and said,“What strange things are these?I know not of what use they are!”
I bowed my head in shame and thought,“I have not fought for these,I did not buy them in the market; they are not fit gifts for her.”
Then the whole night through I flung them one by one into the street.
In the morning travellers came; they picked them up and carried them into far countries.
Ah me,why did they build my house by the road to the market town?
They moor their laden boats near my trees.
They come and go and wander at their will.
I sit and watch them; my time wears on.
Turn them away I cannot.And thus my days pass by.
Night and day their steps sound by my door.
Vainly I cry,“I do not know you.”
Some of them are known to my fingers,some to my nostrils,the blood in my veins seems to know them,and some are known to my dreams.
Turn them away I cannot.I call them and say,“Come to my house whoever chooses.Yes,come.”
In the morning the bell rings in the temple.
They come with baskets in their hands.
Their feet are rosy-red.The early light of dawn is on their faces.
Turn them away I cannot.I call them and I say,“Come to my garden to gather flowers.Come hither.”
In the mid-day the gong sounds at the palace gate.
I know not why they leave their work and linger near my hedge.
The flowers in their hair are pale and faded; the notes are languid in their flutes.
Turn them away I cannot.I call them and say,“The shade is cool under my trees.Come,friends.”
At night the crickets chirp in the woods.
Who is it that comes slowly to my door and gently knocks?
I vaguely see the face,not a word is spoken,the stillness of the sky is all around.
Turn away my silent guest I cannot.I look at the face through the dark,and hours of dreams pass by.
I am restless.I am thirst for faraway things.
My soul goes out in a longing to touch the skirt of the dim distance.
O Great Beyond,O the keen call of thy flute!
I forget,I ever forget,that I have no wings to fly,that I am bound in this spot evermore.
I am eager and wakeful,I am a stranger in a strange land.
Thy breath comes to me whispering an impossible hope.
Thy tongue is known to my heart as its very own.
O Far-to-seek,O the keen call of thy flute!
I forget,I ever forget,that I know not the way,that I have not the winged horse.
I am listless,I am a wanderer in my heart.
In the sunny haze of the languid hours,what vast vision of thine takes shape in the blue of the sky!
O Farthest end,O the keen call of thy flute!
I forget,I ever forget,that the gates are shut everywhere in the house where I dwell alone!
The tame bird was in a cage,the free bird was in the forest.
They met when the time came,it was a decree of fate.
The free bird cries,“O my love,let us fly to wood.”
The cage bird whisper,“Come hither,let us both live in the cage.”
Says the free bird,“Among bars,where is there room to spread one’s wings?”
“Alas,”cries the cage bird,“I should not know where to sit perched in the sky.”
The free bird cries,“My darling,sing the songs of the woodlands.”
The cage bird says,“Sit by my side,I’ll teach you the speech of the learned.”
The forest bird cries,“No,ah no! songs can never be taught.”
The cage bird says,“Alas for me,I know not the songs of the woodlands.”
Their love is intense with longing,but they never can fly wing to wing.
Through the bars of the cage they look,and vain is their wish to know each other.
They flutter their wings in yearning,and sing,“Come closer,my love!”
The free bird cries,“It cannot be,I fear the closed doors of the cage,”
The cage bird whispers,“Alas,my wings are powerless and dead.”
O mother,the young Prince is to pass by our door,—how can I attend to my work this morning?
Show me how to braid up my hair; tell me what garment to put on.
Why do you look at me amazed,mother?
I know well he will not glance up once at my window; I know he will pass out of my sight in the twinkling of an eye; only the vanishing strain of the flute will come sobbing to me from afar.
But the young Prince will pass by our door,and I will put on my best for the moment.
O mother,the young Prince did pass by our door,and the morning sun flashed from his chariot.
I swept aside the veil from my face,I tore the ruby chain from my neck and flung it in his path.
Why do you look at me amazed,mother?
I know well he did not pick up my chain; I know it was crushed under his wheels leaving a red stain upon the dust,and no one knows what my gift was nor to whom.
But the young Prince did pass by our door,and I flung the jewel from my breast before his path.
When the lamp went out by my bed,I woke up with the early birds.
I sat at my open window with a fresh wreath on my loose hair.
The young traveller came along the road in the rosy mist of the morning.
A pearl chain was on his neck,and the sun’s ray fell on his crown.He stopped before my door and asked me with an eager cry,“Where is she?”
For very shame I could not say,“She is I,young traveller,she is I.”
It was dusk and the lamp was not lit.
I was listlessly braiding my hair.
The young traveller came on his chariot in the glow of the setting sun.
His horses were foaming at the mouth,and there was dust on his grment.
He alighted at my door and asked in a tired voice,“Where is she?”
For very shame I could not say,“She is I,weary traveller,she is I.”
It is an April night.The lamp is burning in my room.
The breeze of the south comes gently.The noisy parrot sleeps in its cage.
My bodice is the colour of the peacock’s throat,and my mantle is green as young grass.
I sit upon the floor at the window watching the deserted street.
Through the dark night I keep humming,“She is I,despairing traveller,she is I.”
When I go alone at night to my love-tryst,birds do not sing,the wind does not stir,the houses on both sides of the street stand silent.
It is my own anklets that grow loud at every step and I am ashamed.
When I sit on my balcony and listen for his footsteps,leaves do not rustle on the trees,and the water is still in the river like the sword on the knees of a sentry fallen asleep.
It is my own heart that beats wildly—I do not know how to quiet it.
When my love comes and sits by my side,when my body trembles and my eyelids droop,the night darkens,the wind blows out the lamp,and the clouds draw veils over the stars.
It is the jewel at my own breast that shines and gives light.I do not know how to hide it.
Let your work be,bride.Listen,the guest has come.
Do you hear,he is gently shaking the chain which fastens the door?
See that your anklets make no loud noise,and that your step is not overhurried at meeting him.
Let your work be,bride,the guest has come in the evening.
No,it is not the ghostly wind,bride,do not be frightened.
It is the full moon on a night of April; shadows are pale in the courtyard; the sky overhead is bright.
Draw your veil over your face if you must,carry the lamp to the door if you fear.
No,it is not the ghostly wind,bride,do not be frightened.
Have no word with him if you are shy; stand aside by the door when you meet him.
If he asks you questions,and if you wish to,you can lower your eyes in silence.
Do not let your bracelets jingle when,lamp in hand,you lead him in.
Have no word with him if you are shy.
Have you not finished your work yet,bride?Listen,the guest has come.
Have you not lit the lamp in the cowshed?
Have you not got ready the offering basket for the evening service?
Have you not put the red lucky mark at the parting of your hair,and done your toilet for the night?
O bride,do you hear,the guest has come?
Let your work be!
Come as you are; do not loiter over your toilet.
If your braided hair has loosened,if the parting of your hair be not straight,if the ribbons of your bodice be not fastened,do not mind.
Come as you are; do not loiter over your toilet.
Come,with quick steps over the grass.
If the raddle come from your feet because of the dew,if the rings of bells upon your feet slacken,if pearls drop out of your chain,do not mind.
Come with quick steps over the grass.
Do you see the clouds wrapping the sky?
Flocks of cranes fly up from the further river-bank and fitful gusts of wind rush over the heath.
The anxious cattle run to their stalls in the village.
Do you see the clouds wrapping the sky?
In vain you light your toilet lamp—it flickers and goes out in the wind.
Who can know that your eyelids have not been touched with lampblack?For your eyes are darker than rain-clouds.
In vain you light your toilet lamp—it goes out.
Come as you are; do not loiter over your toilet.
If the wreath is not woven,who cares; if the wrist-chain has not been linked,let it be.
The sky is overcast with clouds—it is late.
Come as you are; do not loiter over your toilet.
If you would be busy and fill your pitcher,come,O come to my lake.
The water will cling round your feet and babble its secret.
The shadow of the coming rain is on the sands,and the clouds hang low upon the blue lines of the trees like the heavy hair above your eyebrows.
I know well the rhythm of your steps,they are beating in my heart.
Come,O come to my lake,if you must fill your pitcher.
If you would be idle and sit listless and let your pitcher float on the water,come,O come to my lake.
The grassy slope is green,and the wild flowers beyond number.
Your thoughts will stray out of your dark eyes like birds from their nests.
Your veil will drop to your feet.
Come,O come to my lake if you must sit idle.
If you would leave off your play and dive in the water,come,O come to my lake.
Let your blue mantle lie on the shore; the blue water will cover you and hide you.
The waves will stand at tiptoe to kiss your neck and whisper in your ears.
Come,O come to my lake,if you would dive in the water.
If you must be mad and leap to your death,come,O come to my lake.
It is cool and fathomlessly deep.
It is dark like a sleep that is dreamless.
There in its depths nights and days are one,and songs are silence.
Come,O come to my lake,if you would plunge to your death.
I asked nothing,only stood at the edge of the wood behind the tree.
Languor was still upon the eyes of the dawn,and the dew in the air.
The lazy smell of the damp grass hung in the thin mist above the earth.
Under the banyan tree you were milking the cow with your hands,tender and fresh as butter.
And I was standing still.
I did not say a word.It was the bird that sang unseen from the thicket.
The mango tree was shedding its flowers upon the village road,and the bees came humming one by one.
On the side of the pond the gate of Shiva’s temple was opened and the worshipper had begun his chants.
With the vessel on your lap you were milking the cow.
I stood with my empty can.
I did not come near you.
The sky woke with the sound of the gong at the temple.
The dust was raised in the road from the hoofs of the driven cattle.
With the gurgling pitchers at their hips,women came from the river.
Your bracelets were jingling,and foam brimming over the jar.
The morning wore on and I did not come near you.
I was walking by the road,I do not know why,when the noonday was past and bamboo branches rustled in the wind.
The prone shadows with their outstretched arms clung to the feet of the hurrying light.
The koels were weary of their songs.
I was walking by the road,I do not know why.
The hut by the side of the water is shaded by an overhanging tree.
Some one was busy with her work,and her bangles made music in the corner.
I stood before this hut,I know not why.
The narrow winding road crosses many a mustard field,and many a mango forest.
It passes by the temple of the village and the market at the river landing place.
I stopped by this hut,I do not know why.
Years ago it was a day of breezy March when the murmur if the spring was languorous,and mango blossoms were dropping on the dust.
The rippling water leapt and licked the brass vessel that stood on the landing step.
I think of that day of breezy March,I do not know why.
Shadows are deepening and cattle returning to their folds.
The light is grey upon the lonely meadows,and the villagers are waiting for the ferry at the bank.
I slowly return upon my steps,I do not know why.
I run as a musk-deer runs in the shadow of the forest mad with his own perfume.
The night is the night of mid-May,the breeze is the breeze of the south.
I lose my way and I wander,I seek what I cannot get,I get what I do not seek.
From my heart comes out and dances the image of my own desire.
The gleaming vision flits on.
I try to clasp it firmly,it eludes me and leads me astray.
I seek what I cannot get,I get what I do not seek.
Hands cling to hands and eyes linger on eyes; thus begins the record of our hearts.
It is the moonlit night of March; the sweet smell of henna is in the air; my flute lies on the earth neglected and your garland of flowers is unfinished.
This love between you and me is simple as a song.
Your veil of the saffron colour makes my eyes drunk.
The jasmine wreath that you wove me thrills to my heart like praise.
It is a game of giving and withholding,revealing and screening again; some smiles and some little shyness,and some sweet useless struggles.
This love between you and me is simple as a song.
No mystery beyond the present; no striving for the impossible; no shadow behind the charm; no groping in the depth of the dark.
This love between you and me is simple as a song.
We do not stray out of all words into the ever silent; we do not raise our hands to the void for things beyond hope.
It is enough what we give and we get.
We have not crushed the joy to the utmost to wring from it the wine of pain.
This love between you and me is simple as a song.
The yellow birds sings in their tree and makes my heart dance with gladness.
We both live in the same village,and that is our one piece of joy.
Her pair of pet lambs come to graze in the shade of our garden trees.
If they stray into my barley field,I take them up in my arms.
The name of our village is Khanjana,and Anjana they call our river.
My name is known to all the village,and her name is Ranjana.
Only one field lies between us.
Bees that have hived in our grove go to seek honey in theirs.
Flowers launched from their landing-stairs come floating by the stream where we bathe.
Baskets of dried kusm flowers come from their fields to our market.
The name of our village is Khanjana,and Anjana they call our river.
My name is known to all the village,and her name is Ranjana.
The lane that winds to their house is fragrant in the spring with mango flowers.
When their linseed is ripe for harvest the hemp is in bloom in our field.
The stars that smile on their cottage send us the same twinkling look.
The rain that floods their tank makes glad our kadam forest.
The name of our village is Khanjana,and Anjana they call our river.
My name is known to all the village,and her name is Ranjana.
When the two sisters go to fetch water,they come to this spot and they smile.
They must be aware of somebody who stands behind the trees whenever they go to fetch water.
The two sisters whisper to each other when they pass this spot.
They must have guessed the secret of that somebody who stands behind the trees whenever they go to fetch water.
Their pitchers lurch suddenly,and water spills when they reach this spot.
They must have found that somebody’s heart is beating who stands behind the trees whenever they go to fetch water.
The two sisters glance at each other when they come to this spot,and they smile.
There is a laughter in their swift-stepping feet,which makes confusion in somebody’s mind who stands behind the trees whenever they go to fetch water.
You walked by the riverside path with the full pitcher upon your hip.
Why did you swiftly turn your face and peep at me through your fluttering veil?
That gleaming look from the dark came upon me like a breeze that sends a shiver through the rippling water and sweeps away to the shadowy shore.
It came to me like a bird of the evening that hurriedly flies across the lampless room from the one open window to the other,and disappears in the night.
You are hidden like a star behind the hills,and I am a passer-by upon the road.
But why did you stop for a moment and glance at my face through your veil while you walked by the riverside path with the full pitcher upon your hip?
Day after day he comes and goes away.
Go,and give him a flower from my hair,my friend.
If he asks who was it that sent it,I entreat you do not tell him my name—for he only comes and goes away.
He sits on the dust under the tree.
Spread there a seat with flowers and leaves,my friend.
His eyes are sad,and they bring sadness to my heart.
He does not speak what he has in mind; he only comes and goes away.
Why did he choose to come to my door,the wandering youth,when the day dawned?
As I come in and out I pass by him every time,and my eyes are caught by his face.
I know not if I should speak to him or keep silent.Why did he choose to come to my door.
The cloudy nights in July are dark; the sky is soft blue in the autumn; the spring days are restless with the south wind.
He weaves his songs with fresh tunes every time.
I turn from my work and my eyes fill with the mist.Why did he choose to come my door?
When she passed by me with quick steps,the end of her skirt touched me.
From the unknown island of a heart came a sudden warm breath of spring.
A flutter of a flitting touch brushed me and vanished in a moment,like a torn flower petal blown in the breeze.
It fell upon my heart like a sigh of her body and whisper of her heart.
Why do you sit there and jingle your bracelets in mere idle sport?
Fill your pitcher.It is time for you to come home.
Why do you stir the water with your hands and fitfully glance at the road for some one in mere idle sport?
Fill your pitcher and come home.
The morning hours pass by—the dark water flows on.
The waves are laughing and whispering to each other in mere idle sport.
The wandering clouds have gathered at the edge of the sky on yonder rise of the land.
They linger and look at your face and smile mere idle sport.
Fill your pitcher and come home.
Do not keep to yourself the secret of your heart,my friend!
Say it to me,only to me,in secret.
You who smile so gently,softly whisper,my heart will hear it,not my ears.
The night is deep,the house is silent,the birds’nests are shrouded with sleep.
Speak to me through hesitating tears,through faltering smiles,through sweet shame and pain,the secret of your heart.
“Come to us,youth,tell us truly why there is madness in your eyes?”
“I know not what wine of wild poppy I have drunk,that there is this madness in my eyes.”
“Ah,shame!”
“Well,some are wise and some foolish,some are watchful and some careless.There are eyes that smile and eyes that weep—and madness is in my eyes.”
“Youth,why do you stand so still under the shadow of the tree?”
“My feet are languid with the burden of my heart,and I stand still in the shadow.”
“Ah,shame!”
“Well,some march on their way and some linger,some are free and some are fettered—and my feet are languid with the burden of my heart.”
“What comes from your willing hands I take.I beg for nothing more.”
“Yes,yes,I know you,modest mendicant,you ask for all that one has.”
“If there be a stray flower for me I will wear it in my heart.”
“But if there be thorns?”
“I will endure them.”
“Yes,yes,I know you,modest mendicant,you ask for all that one has.”
“If but once you should raise your loving eyes to my face it would make my life sweet beyond death.”
“But if there be only cruel glances?”
“I will keep them piercing my heart.”
“Yes,yes,I know you,modest mendicant,you ask for all that one has.”
“Trust love even if it brings sorrow.Do not close up your heart.”
“Ah no,my friend,your words are dark,I cannot understand them.”
“The heart is only giving away with a tear and a song,my love.”
“Ah no,my friend,your words are dark,I cannot understand them.”
“Pleasure is frail like a dewdrop,while it laughs it dies.But sorrow is strong and abiding.Let sorrowful love wake in your eyes.”
“Ah no,my friend,your words are dark,I cannot understand them.”
“The lotus blooms in the sight of the sun,and loses all that it has.It would not remain in bud in the eternal winter mist.”
“Ah no,my friend,your words are dark,I cannot understand them.”
Your questioning eyes are sad.They seem to know my meaning as the moon would fathom the sea.
I have bared my life before your eyes from end to end,with nothing hidden or held back.That is why you know me not.
If it were only a gem I could break it into a hundred pieces and string them into a chain to put on your neck.
If it were only a flower,round and small and sweet,I could pluck it from its stem to set it in your hair.
But it is a heart,my beloved.Where are its shores and its bottom?
You know not the limits of this kingdom,still you are its queen.
If it were only a moment of pleasure it would flower in an easy smile,and you could see it and read it in a moment.
If it were merely a pain it would melt in limpid tears,reflecting its inmost secret without a word.
But it is love,my beloved.
Its pleasure and pain are boundless,and endless its wants and wealth.
It is as near to you as your life,but you can never wholly know it.
Speak to me,my love! Tell me in words what you sang.
The night is dark.The stars are lost in clouds.The wind is sighing through the leaves.
I will let loose my hair.My blue cloak will cling round me like night.I will clasp your head to my bosom; and there in the sweet loneliness murmur on your heart.I will shut my eyes and listen.I will not look in your face.
When your words are ended,we will sit still and silent.Only the trees will whisper in the dark.
The night will pale.The day will dawn.We shall look at each other’s eyes and go on our different paths.
Speak to me,my love! Tell me in words what you sang.
You are the evening cloud floating in the sky of my dreams.
I paint you and fashion you ever with my love longings.
You are my own,my own,Dweller in my endless dreams!
Your feet are rosy-red with the glow of my heart’s desire,Gleaner of my sunset songs!
Your lips are bitter-sweet with the taste of my wine of pain.
You are my own,my own,Dweller in my lonesome dreams!
With the shadow of my passion have I darkened your eyes,Haunter of the depth of my gaze!
I have caught you and wrapt you,my love,in the net of my music.
You are my own,my own,Dweller in my deathless dreams!
My heart,the bird of the wilderness,has found its sky in your eyes.
They are the cradle of the morning,they are the kingdom of the stars.
My songs are lost in their depths.
Let me but soar in that sky,in its loney immensiy.
Let me but cleave its clouds and spread wings in its sunshine.
Tell me if this be all true,my lover,tell me if this be true.
When these eyes flash their lightning the dark clouds in your breast make stormy answer.
Is it true that my lips are sweet like the opening bud of the first conscious love?
Do the memories of vanished months of May linger in my limbs?
Does the earth,like a sharp,shiver into songs with the touch of my feet?
Is it then true that the dewdrops fall from the eyes of night when I am seen,and the morning light is glad when it wraps my body round?
Is it true,is it true,that your love travelled alone through ages and worlds in search of me?
That when you found me at last,your age-long desire found utter peace in my gentle speech and my eyes and lips and flowing hair?
Is it then true that the mystery of the Infinite is written on this little forehead of mine?
Tell me,my lover,if all this be true.
I love you,beloved.Forgive me my love.
Like a bird losing its way I am caught.
When my heart was shaken,it lost its veil and was naked.Cover it with pity,beloved,and forgive me my love.
If you cannot love me,beloved,forgive me my pain.
Do not look askance at me from afar.
I will steal back to my corner and sit in the dark.
With both hands I will cover my naked shame.
Turn your face from me,beloved,and forgive me my pain.
If you love me,loved,forgive me my joy.
When my heart is borne away by the flood of happiness,do not smile at my perilous abandonment.
When I sit on my throne and rule you with my tyranny of love,when like a goddess I grant you my favor,bear with my pride,beloved,and forgive me my joy.
Do not go,my love,without asking my leave.
I have watched all night,and now my eyes are heavy with sleep.
I fear lest I lose you when I am sleeping.
Do not go,my love,without asking my leave.
I start up and stretch my hands to touch you.I ask myself,“Is it a dream?”
Could I but entangle your feet with my heart and hold them fast to my breast!
Do not go,my love,without asking my leave.
Lest I should know you too easily,you play with me.
You blind me with flashes of laughter to hide your tears.
I know,I know your art.
You never say the word you would.
Lest I should not prize you,you elude me in a thousand ways.
Lest I should confuse you with the crowd,you stand aside.
I know,I know your art.
You never walk the path you would.
Your claim is more than that of others,that is why you are silent.
With playful carelessness you avoid my gifts.
I know,I know your art.
You never will take what you would.
He whispered,“My love,raise your eyes.”
I sharply chid him,and said “Go!”; but he did not stir.
He stood before me and held both my hands.I said,“Leave me!”; but he did not go.
He brought his face near my ear.I glanced at him and said,“What a shame!”; but he did not move.
His lips touched my cheek.I trembled and said,“You dare too much”; but he had no shame.
He put a flower in my hair.I said,“It is useless!”; but he stood unmoved.
He took the garland from my neck and went away.I weep and ask my heart,“Why does he not come back?”
Would you put your wreath of fresh flowers on my neck,fair one?
But you must know that the one wreath that I had woven is for the many,for those who are seen in glimpses,or dwell in lands unexplored,or live in poets’ songs.
It is too late to ask my heart in return for yours.
There was a time when my life was like a bud,all its perfume was stored in its core.
Now it is squandered far and wide.
Who knows the enchantment that can gather and shut it up again?
My heart is not mine to give to one only,it is given to the many.
My love,once upon a time your poet launched a great epic in his mind.
Alas,I was not careful,and it struck your ringing anklets and came to grief.
It broke up into scraps of songs and lay scattered at your feet.
All my cargo of the stories of old wars was tossed by the laughing waves and soaked in tears and sank.
You must make this loss good to me,my love.
If my claims to immortal fame after death are shattered,make me immortal while I live.
And I will not mourn for my loss nor blame you.
I try to weave a wreath all the morning,but the flowers slip and they drop out.
You sit there watching me in secret through the corner of your prying eyes.
Ask those eyes,darkly planning mischief,whose fault it was.
I try to sing a song,but in vain.
A hidden smile trembles on your lips,ask of it the reason of my failure.
Let your smiling lips say on oath how my voice lost itself in silence like a drunken bee in the lotus.
It is evening,and the time for the flowers to close their petals.
Give me leave to sit by your side,and bid my lips to do the work that can be done in silence and in dim light of stars.
An unbelieving smile flits on your eyes when I come to you to take my leave.
I have done it so often that you think I will soon return.
To tell you the truth I have the same doubt in my mind.
For the spring days come again time after time; the full moon takes leave and comes on another visit,the flowers come again and blush upon their branches year after year,and it is likely that I take my leave only to come to you again.
But keep the illusion awhile; do not send it away with ungentle haste.
When I say I leave you for all time,accept it as true,and let a mist of tears for one moment deepen the dark rim of your eyes.
Then smile as archly as you like when I come again.
I long to speak the deepest words I have to say to you; but I dare not,for fear you should laugh.
That is why I laugh at myself and shatter my secret in jest.
I make light of my pain,afraid you should do so.
I long to tell you the truest words I have to say to you; but I dare not,being afraid that you would not believe them.
That is why I disguise them in untruth,saying the contrary of what I mean.
I make my pain appear absurd,afraid that you should do so.
I long to use the most precious words I have for you; but I dare not,fearing I should not be paid with like value.
That is why I give you hard names and boast of my callous strength.
I hurt you,for fear you would never know any pain.
I long to sit silent by you; but I dare not lest my heart come out at my lips.
That is why I prattle and chatter lightly and hide my heart behind words.
I rudely handle my pain,for fear you should do so.
I long to go away from your side; but I dare not,for fear my cowardice should become known to you.
That is why I hold my head high and carelessly come into your presence.
Constant thrusts from your eyes keep my pain fresh for ever.
O mad,superbly drunk;
If you kick open your doors and play the fool in public;
If you empty your bag in a night,and snap your fingers at prudence;
If you walk in curious paths and play with useless things;
Reck not rhyme or reason;
If unfurling your sails before the storm you snap the rudder in two,Then I will follow you,comrade,and be drunken and go to the dogs.
I have wasted my days and nights in the company of steady wise neighbors.
Much knowing has turned my hair grey,and much watching has made my sight dim.
For years I have gathered and heaped up scraps and fragments of things:
Crush them and dance upon them,and scatter them all to the winds.
For I know this the height of wisdom to be drunken and go to the dogs.
Let all crooked scruples vanish,let me hopelessly lose my way.
Let a gust of wild giddiness come and sweep me away from my anchors.
The world is peopled with worthies,and workers,useful and clever.
There are men who are easily first,and men who come decently after.
Let them be happy and prosper,and let me be foolishly futile.
For I know this the end of all works to be drunken and go to the dogs.
I swear to surrender this moment all claims to the ranks of the decent.
I let go my pride of learning and judgment of right and of wrong.
I’ll shatter memory’s vessel,scattering the last the drop of tears.
With the foam of the berry-red wine I will bathe and brighten my laughter.
The badge of the civil and staid I’ll tear into shreds for the nonce.
I’ll take the holy vow to be worthless,to be drunken and go to the dogs.
No,my friends,I shall never be an ascetic,whatever you may say.
I shall never be an ascetic if she does not take the vow with me.
It is my firm resolve that if I cannot find a shady shelter and a companion for my penance,I shall never turn ascetic.
No,my friends,I shall never leave my hearth and home,and retire into the forest solitude,if rings no merry laughter in its echoing shade and if the end of no saffron mantle flutters in the wind; if its silence is not deepened by soft whispers.
I shall never be an ascetic.
Reverend sir,forgive this pair of sinners.
Spring winds today are blowing in wild eddies,driving dust and dead leaves away,and with them your lessons are all lost.
Do not say,father,that life is a vanity.
For me have made truce with death for once,and only for a few fragrant hours we two have been made immortal.
Even if the king’s army came and fiercely fell upon us we should sadly shake our heads and say,Brothers,you are disturbing us.If you must have this noisy game,go and clatter your arms elsewhere.
Since only for a few fleeting moments we have been made immortal.
If friendly people came and flocked around us,we should humbly bow to them and say,This extravagant good fortune is an embarrassment to us.Room is scare in the infinite sky where we dwell.For in the springtime flowers come in crowds,and the busy wings of bees jostle each other.Our little heaven,where dwell only we two immortals,is too absurdly narrow.
To the guests that must go bid God’s speed and brush away all traces of their steps.
Take to your bosom with a smile what is easy and simple and near.
Today is the festival of phantoms that know not when they die.
Let your laughter be but a meaningless mirth like twinkles of light on the ripples.
Let your life lightly dance on the edges of Time like dew on the tip of a leaf.
Strike in chords from your harp fitful momentary rhythms.
You left me and went on your way.
I thought I should mourn for you and set your solitary image in my heart wrought in a golden song.
But ah,my evil fortune,time is short.
Youth wanes year after year; the spring days are fugitive; the frail flowers die for nothing,and the wise man warns me that life is but a dewdrop on the lotus leaf.
Should I neglect all this to gaze after one who has turned her back on me?
That would be rude and foolish,for time is short.
Then,come,my rainy nights with pattering feet; smile,my golden autumn; come,careless April,scattering your kisses abroad.
You come,and you,and you also!
My loves,you know we are mortals.Is it wise to break one’s heart for the one who takes her heart away?For time is short.
It is sweet to sit in a corner to muse and write in rhymes that you are all my world.
It is heroic to hug one’s sorrow and determine not to be consoled.
But a fresh face peeps across my door and raises its eyes to my eyes.
